“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.“
On Monday, September 10th, I was hit by a truck while walking to the train in the midst of a storm…
Now before I go any further, let me reassure you that ALL IS WELL! I am healed, whole, and still moving forward!
As I’ve recently shared with you, I’ve been in a personal storm myself. A storm of doubt, fear, uncertainty, discomfort, weariness, and discouragement. But on Monday, I decided that despite the storm, I would be determined in the midst of discouragement – so I pressed. I mean, from my perspective I’ve had enough setbacks, delays, postponements, and “rest” days. Regardless of what it looked like outside or how I felt on the inside, I couldn’t possibly miss another work day; ESPECIALLY with PIPC-STL right around the corner! So I pressed.
I spent the beginning of the day working from home. Then, I decided to get dressed and keep my evening meeting. The rain seemed to be letting up and I wasn’t about to let a storm keep me from further walking into destiny! And to be completely honest with you, I needed to get out of the house! So I pressed.
With a misty breeze outside, I was happy to know that the weather looked worse than it actually was. There was no rain really falling from the sky. As I made it to the intersection at the top of my street, I had to make a decision – go straight or make a left. I vividly remember saying to myself, “I’m not about to play with these cars today! I’m going to take the safe route.” So I made a left. With every step I took, I felt more encouraged and empowered. “I’m doing this…I’m weathering the storm…I wasn’t moved by what I saw or how I feel. I got this!” I even switched my gospel music from worship to something more upbeat. My gospel rap was really putting me in the right frame of mind – “it’s game time! I’m ready for war! It’s time to go harder and get it done, Cassondra!” Something told me to turn back to my worship music, but naw – I needed to get amp so that I could finish strong! Putting my phone away, I made it to the 2nd intersection – keep straight or make a right. By now, the misty weather became an outpouring. The rain was beginning to pick up. The closer I got to the train station, the harder it began to fall.
I’ll just keep going straight.
As I approached the 3rd intersection leading to the station, I was faced with another decision – continue straight or make a right? With 7 seconds on the timer for me to cross the street if I decide to keep straight, I opted against it. “I don’t feel like running across this street. Besides, there’s no grips on the bottom of these shoes”…so I waited. As the light turned red, and the other green, I patiently waited for the silver SUV in front if me to make his left turn before I crossed. He waited…signaling me to cross. So I did.
More than halfway across the street and almost to the sidewalk, I notice the truck beginning to make his turn. Unalarmed (because this is how they drive up here) I continue to walk. The driver begins to accelerate but before I could… *BOOM!!!!* …I was hit.
The next thing I knew, I was rolling onto the ground. With 100% adrenaline running through my body, I pick myself up and walked to the sidewalk…
After my time in the ER, and all my x-rays came back clear – no breaks or fractures – my next few days were spent at home, in recovery. Not just physical & mental recovery, but also spiritual recovery. I had never felt so low in my life. How could ALLLLLL of these bad things be happening to me? And, all at once! Like, can I get a break?
During my moments of reflection, although very traumatic, being hit by that truck has only made me stronger. GOD’s GRACE BLOCKED THE DEVIL’s ATTACK! I could be dead right now, or severely injured. But, I’m not! I went from not being able to raise my left arm into the air and walking with a limp, to teaching a sermon in front of the entire congregation – IN HEELS – on Sunday morning! I was hit on Monday, I was in the pulpit on Sunday.
DON’T TELL ME WHAT MY GOD CAN’T DO!
ALL of my doctors and nurses KEPT telling me that as the days progressed, “It will get worse before it gets better. It will feel like you were hit by a car.” I rebuked their words (under my breath of course). But by the last person who tried to speak that “warning” over me, I outwardly nodded my head – NO – in disagreement. I didn’t mean to. Lol. I guess I was just over consistently hearing the doctor’s report because to me, the word of God is more powerful. Jesus is the physician and God has the final say. So all that jazz about me being in pain wasn’t about to sit inside of me. I refused.
Reflecting on my 28-years on earth, life is filled with unexpected trucks that are waiting on you in the midst of the storm. Whether intentional or accidental, you’re bound to get hit by a few of them and knocked off of your feet. The depth of your fortitude is revealed in what you do once you’re on the ground – do you lay there in self-pity or do you get back up (stronger than before) and continue to P.R.E.S.S.*?
Pray at all times.
Resist the devil and all temptations.
put forth Effort.
Seek God first.
remain Steadfast in your faith.
I can go on, and on, and on about the revelation I received during those quiet moments of recovery, but to sum it all up – Rest (in the Lord), Surrender (your mind & understanding over to the Lord), Be Still (in God’s presence), Trust (in the Lord), Be Grateful (for God’s grace and protection), Praise (in the midst of the storm), and LIVE In TODAY (because the present is a gift and tomorrow isn’t promised).
The shift as occurred and my timetable means nothing to God.
God’s grace will take me further than my grinding ever could.
And despite what it looks like outside, I won’t let life’s trials and tribulations rain on my parade. I serve the God who is in total control and reigns above it all. He’s the Governing God and final Authority in my life!
Live life. Love you all and enJOY your life!
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.“